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(OOC: This follows off from this thread. So backdated like whoa.)
[The following is written VERY sloppily and is very watermarked – still readable, but barely]
I -- I --
oh God
I don’t know what's real anymore, is any of this real or am I still there
I want this to be real i don't want to be there i dont' want any more operations
great scott i'm so scared
be real, please be real i don't care how insane you are chicago be real
oh God get out of my head GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!
[The following is written VERY sloppily and is very watermarked – still readable, but barely]
I -- I --
oh God
I don’t know what's real anymore, is any of this real or am I still there
I want this to be real i don't want to be there i dont' want any more operations
great scott i'm so scared
be real, please be real i don't care how insane you are chicago be real
oh God get out of my head GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!
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Date: 2008-08-24 01:37 am (UTC)And as bonkers as this city is, it is REAL. Trust me on that. The pain and the hope and the love and the mess, it's all as real as can be. It is real.
You're in Chicago. It's a messy place, but right now...
It's home.
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Date: 2008-08-24 01:49 am (UTC)hallucinated before because of his pets -- things -- whatever. wouldn't put it past him to drug me up again just to see what happens
what if they're hurting Marty and I can't help him?? he needs me i need him mein sohn
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Date: 2008-08-24 01:56 am (UTC)I can't tell you what happened to Marty. I don't know. But I do know FOR A FACT that I am not a hallucination. Don't ask me how. I just KNOW. And DAMMIT, Doc, you're not a hallucination either. We're here for a reason, I just know it. You have to stay here and figure out what that reason is.
Stay with me.
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Date: 2008-08-24 02:00 am (UTC)You don't know them. They can do ANYTHING. ANYTHING. He ripped out my heart and replaced it with a steam engine and I WAS STILL CONSCIOUS for most of it
don't want to be this want to go home
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Date: 2008-08-24 02:14 am (UTC)Make the best of it. Don't live in fear- if he wants to give you happy things, TAKE THEM AND RUN.
You can do it. I know you can. I believe in you.
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Date: 2008-08-24 02:27 am (UTC)just so scared
but I'm good at running. running I can do.
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Date: 2008-08-24 02:30 am (UTC)I promise.
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Date: 2008-08-24 02:24 am (UTC)I don't believe that we've been previously introduced, but I have some basic training as a psychic engineer. If you're worried that you might be under the influence of a psychic, I could attempt assistance.
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Date: 2008-08-24 02:31 am (UTC)whatifIlosemymemoriesagainno subject
Date: 2008-08-24 02:33 am (UTC)If at some point you would like to speak with me, I'm generally available over the journals.
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Date: 2008-08-24 02:49 am (UTC)I'll -- keep that in mind.
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Date: 2008-08-24 02:30 am (UTC)Doc, what the hell happened?
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Date: 2008-08-24 02:33 am (UTC)had to run, had to get away
barely know which way is up anymore
don't want to be back there, want to be FREE
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Date: 2008-08-24 02:49 am (UTC)Oh fu [The entry just stops here]
(OOC: Hoo boy...)
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Date: 2008-08-25 03:47 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-08-25 09:04 pm (UTC)I think I understand better what you meant that one day when you said you were worried this place wasn't real. I'd had my own fears on the subject, but I hadn't -- contemplated them like that.
I think IHonestly, just knowing you're around and real makes me feel better. Though if you want to schedule another visit in the future (maybe for time-machine related purposes?). . . . Speaking of which, are you okay, then? I know our get-getogether ended up being something of a clusterfuck, if you'll excuse my language.