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[clockwork_doc]

(OOC: This follows off from this thread. So backdated like whoa.)

[The following is written VERY sloppily and is very watermarked – still readable, but barely]

I -- I --

oh God

I don’t know what's real anymore, is any of this real or am I still there

I want this to be real i don't want to be there i dont' want any more operations

great scott i'm so scared

be real, please be real i don't care how insane you are chicago be real

oh God get out of my head GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!

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[cookiesandhugs.livejournal.com]

Darling, darling, calm down, calm down, I'm real, you're real, it will be fine.

And as bonkers as this city is, it is REAL. Trust me on that. The pain and the hope and the love and the mess, it's all as real as can be. It is real.

You're in Chicago. It's a messy place, but right now...

It's home.

[clockwork-doc.livejournal.com]

how can i be sure

hallucinated before because of his pets -- things -- whatever. wouldn't put it past him to drug me up again just to see what happens

what if they're hurting Marty and I can't help him?? he needs me i need him mein sohn

[cookiesandhugs.livejournal.com]

Why would he give you nice things? You have friends here, you have... a family. Happiness is one of the simplest emotions in the broad spectrum- probably the simplest. He has nothing to gain by giving you nice things. Besides, you don't just HALLUCINATE a life. Which is what you have here.

I can't tell you what happened to Marty. I don't know. But I do know FOR A FACT that I am not a hallucination. Don't ask me how. I just KNOW. And DAMMIT, Doc, you're not a hallucination either. We're here for a reason, I just know it. You have to stay here and figure out what that reason is.

Stay with me.

[clockwork-doc.livejournal.com]

YES he does. "The Seeker of All Knowledge" -- he hasn't seen me happy in ages, maybe he was curious

You don't know them. They can do ANYTHING. ANYTHING. He ripped out my heart and replaced it with a steam engine and I WAS STILL CONSCIOUS for most of it

don't want to be this want to go home

[cookiesandhugs.livejournal.com]

THINK, DOC. You are by no means a stupid man. This is YOUR REALITY, just as it's MY reality and EVERYONE ELSE'S REALITY. It's occasionally a very shitty hellhole, it's occasionally a great sucking vortex of pain, but it's REAL. I'M REAL, YOU'RE REAL, AND IT'S WHAT WE'VE GOT TO WORK WITH.

Make the best of it. Don't live in fear- if he wants to give you happy things, TAKE THEM AND RUN.

You can do it. I know you can. I believe in you.

[clockwork-doc.livejournal.com]

I just

just so scared

but I'm good at running. running I can do.

[cookiesandhugs.livejournal.com]

I understand. This whole damn CITY is scary. But you'll be okay.

I promise.