[Public, Because He's Not Thinking of Locks Right Now]

[clockwork_doc]

(OOC: This follows off from this thread. So backdated like whoa.)

[The following is written VERY sloppily and is very watermarked – still readable, but barely]

I -- I --

oh God

I don’t know what's real anymore, is any of this real or am I still there

I want this to be real i don't want to be there i dont' want any more operations

great scott i'm so scared

be real, please be real i don't care how insane you are chicago be real

oh God get out of my head GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!

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[clockwork-doc.livejournal.com]

how can i be sure

hallucinated before because of his pets -- things -- whatever. wouldn't put it past him to drug me up again just to see what happens

what if they're hurting Marty and I can't help him?? he needs me i need him mein sohn

[cookiesandhugs.livejournal.com]

Why would he give you nice things? You have friends here, you have... a family. Happiness is one of the simplest emotions in the broad spectrum- probably the simplest. He has nothing to gain by giving you nice things. Besides, you don't just HALLUCINATE a life. Which is what you have here.

I can't tell you what happened to Marty. I don't know. But I do know FOR A FACT that I am not a hallucination. Don't ask me how. I just KNOW. And DAMMIT, Doc, you're not a hallucination either. We're here for a reason, I just know it. You have to stay here and figure out what that reason is.

Stay with me.

[clockwork-doc.livejournal.com]

YES he does. "The Seeker of All Knowledge" -- he hasn't seen me happy in ages, maybe he was curious

You don't know them. They can do ANYTHING. ANYTHING. He ripped out my heart and replaced it with a steam engine and I WAS STILL CONSCIOUS for most of it

don't want to be this want to go home

[cookiesandhugs.livejournal.com]

THINK, DOC. You are by no means a stupid man. This is YOUR REALITY, just as it's MY reality and EVERYONE ELSE'S REALITY. It's occasionally a very shitty hellhole, it's occasionally a great sucking vortex of pain, but it's REAL. I'M REAL, YOU'RE REAL, AND IT'S WHAT WE'VE GOT TO WORK WITH.

Make the best of it. Don't live in fear- if he wants to give you happy things, TAKE THEM AND RUN.

You can do it. I know you can. I believe in you.

[clockwork-doc.livejournal.com]

I just

just so scared

but I'm good at running. running I can do.

[cookiesandhugs.livejournal.com]

I understand. This whole damn CITY is scary. But you'll be okay.

I promise.